Close to Closing Out 2009

Though I printed out the Goddess Guidebook about two days ago, it took me a while to finally get started.

I took little steps here and there.  My first decision was to print out the Guidebook small enough that it would be portable if I needed it to be.  Then I decided to use a journal I've had in my possession instead of buying a whole separate binder.

The Way of the World - v.2010

It's kind of neat to go back to journaling as blogging is a totally different feeling altogether.  It's like analog vs. digital.  I had to dig out my glue stick!  Though, I'm excited to be able to use my coloring pencils and crayons!

Here are my guidelines for my guidebook:

• I want to be able to dedicate this one book for the Goddess Guidebook, so I placed all the pages within the book to "save a space" for each section.
• I won't glue the pages to the book until I'm ready to use/work on the guidebook page.
• I need to give myself time to work on each page.  I get too excited and want to finish it right away!  But I need to really take my time on this one.
  

A Guidebook Within a Journal Within a Book

So, I feel that I need to complete all the 2009 pages before I can do anything else.  Obviously, that's a restriction I'm placing on myself.  Perhaps it says something about what I was going through last year.

I realized that I spent a lot of the latter half of 2009 trying really hard to stay positive.  Trying.  I think I did a fairly good job at it.  But in the end, it was really exhausting.  I remember specific instances where everything suddenly glazed over because the situation was just hard for my mind to wrap around.  Exhausting.

Though I guess I can't say for sure, it almost feels like the beginning part might be the best part for me.  Cathartic, perhaps. 

So long, farewell

Proud of myself...Releasing the past...

Good times...good times...

I feel like it took a lot of brain power to do these first three pages.  So much so that I think I need to sleep and meditate on it a bit....